i kno i said i was going to stop blogging for sumtime...but dis is irresistible. gotta let it all out b4 i explode, so here goes my last entry to my blog for the timebeing.....not in a very super good mood currently. exams starting next week....not revising alot, but abit scared now, my own fault anyway.



damn i so feel like cursing dat motherfucker rite now! having to kno such person is a humiliation to the entire human race in the universe... n dis jinx call herself a lecturer? yea my ass! wht can a dumbbell teach u might wonder? well shit n crap n loads of junk of cos! claim dat she was a journalist of the entertainment industry bla bla bla but take note dat she is a MALAY writer n writes only in malay most of the time, imagine her giving lectures in English, her verbal n grammar errors put aside, she was FUCKING trying to implant in our pure minds her unacceptably WRONG grammar n everything English!! she was trying to teach us her own version of the English Language in addition wid her own rules for grammar! WHAT DA FUCK!? if u do not understand english n can barely speak a sentence correctly, stop being so fucking arrogant and act like an upper-class MALAY trying to sound like a caucasian but end up sounding like a bitch!


all dis didn't provoke my anger til 2 hours ago, u might say im a very patient person seeing the fact dat our entire class has had to put up wid her for the past 3 months! but wht she did jus now was intolerable! we did not mind or u may say we did not even CARE dat she loves to be ass-licked all her life. Possible reasons why she likes her ass licked: 1.she must be having a bad sex life eventho she claims dat she's doing great in dat aspect. 2. she must be thinking dat her ass tastes like a lollipop or candy floss n its attracting swarms of bees to it, i jus hope they ALL sting her arse. 3. she has never been treated as a human her entire life n now dat there are ppl licking her ass, she enjoys the privilege. 4. she thinks she is the most superior/smart/rich/intelligent/witty/whatever living creature on mother earth, eventho any animal alive in the planet might haf higher iq than her,that she holds the life n death of a student n could simply fail them when they ever step on her tail even so if they did not. 5. since she boasts on abt everything(herself, husband, children, relatives, wealth, intelligence, etc), mayb she praised too much abt her own ass that everyone wants to get a taste of it. 6. this may carry on forever, im not gonna continue da list, need to get to da point.

apparently, Ms-im-a-pig gave out our *marked* midterm papers n assignments today. those papers are supposed to determine our coursework marks. she even announced everyone's marks n no one fails da coursework. the format is: midterms = 10% assignment = 10% participation = 5% dunno-wht-the-hell =5%

all total up to 30%

how she counted our marks, i haf no idea!!!! midterm paper consisted of 40marks and was converted to 10%, so one should take 40 and divide by 4 in order to get 10% rite?? dat moron divided our marks by 5 instead!! thus dragging our marks lower! bloody idiot, which 34-year old does not kno how to do simple maths? unless she is a retard!

and my assignment! before we handed in, she insisted she wanna check in case we made any mistake, so we passed up a second time after she so-called checked our draft. but when we get back the piece wid our marks, she said she is very disappointed wid us cos we didnt do very well despite her correction da first time we handed up. DAMN FAKE LA BITCH! if she had really checked, we were sure to change whts necessary, i mean who would throw their marks down the drain? it jus went to prove that she didn't bother correcting for us eventho she had promised us.. and now blaming it on us??? damn her damn damn damn! i got like what??? 22/30 eventho i had NO mistakes, NO grammar or format errors! gave all the correct details!! the only reason for her to deduct my bloody 8 marks was because she didn't like one of my ideas for the title(essay writing competition press release). dis is too much! this aside...so okie she gave us 3% for participation since we ourselves kno dat we weren't active n din bother polishing her arse in class, dats acceptable! but where is our other 5%? its like an unknown marks, missing, jus forgotten, automatically deducted for no fucking reason... at least if u beh syok and wanna stab me fr behind, give me a goddamn reason for it, even if its only an excuse, but wht is dis? thinking dat all of us are bloody morons too like urself? thinking dat we wouldn't haf enuff brains to find out dat u cheated us wid ur marking scheme? DAMN YOU! only pigs like u dunno maths, well mayb my other classmates are jus too ignorant but sorry we are not them. let me make it clearer: i got 15/30 for coursework, midterms= 5.2 assignment= 7 participation= 3 dunno-wht-da-hell=0 damn fucker, ate my 5% away? lets jus say its for attendance, dat got me even more pissed! tarc got dis regulation dat a student is not supposed to be absent for more than 3 times in tutorials or he/she would be barred fr exam. so?? i only skipped HER tutorials TWICE! there's no reason for her to take away my whole 5%!! furthermore she didn't even take down attendance all this time, as far as i remember, only a few times, not more than 5 times okie, a terrible lazy pig, oh no..correction, WILDBOAR.

its not dat i want my marks to be raised or what shit la...jus really pissed cos she can simply do anything she wants bcos she thought dat everyone else does not know how to think. did i mention dat she gave her 'pets', those she grew fond of in class, who sumhow managed to get a taste of her sweet/sour/salted ass, the 'invisible 5%, maybe they were rewarded the marks for being such good lickers. eh means the 5 marks is for 'licking skill' which i do not intend to get.there were ppl getting as much as 24/30 being the highest so far...how is dat possible? do da counting n u will kno wht i mean.



CONCLUSION: she's a wildboar who is supposed to be mating in the jungle and not seen by any human being for fear they might pass out after taking only a glance at her. dun worry wildyboary, we will get u out of the big dangerous city by asking the authority to send u back to where u belong and no, u do not haf to thank us cos we are jus a couple of good kids always ready to help endangered species like u. all we need to do is to type sum words on a piece of paper n send it. sounds too complicated to u? dun worry u won't haf to think n use ur brain like us cos we kno u haven't/can't done/do dat in ur entire life!




(sorry for the above vulgarities~)

haha im at the library now....dunno where to surf so decided to blog lor.... supposed to do sum research for my assignment but got too frustrated after the stupid log-in failed sheesssh..so dun bother d. later only work on it... gotta rush my assignment n complete it b4 da holidays so dat i can enjoy the rest of my chinese new year!! hooray! at last i get to go back penang la.....ONE WHOLE MONTH d! sheeesh i kno i sound lame but well im HOMESICK! tomolo is a holiday but too bad i gotta revise econs cos having a mid-test on Saturday, da day im going back haiyoh... wonder how's everyone at home ..... gonna go to MBS on Monday(yes u read correctly) to get back my share fr the koperasi teacher Harjinder...then visit the F6 ppl lah, it depends whether they wanna see my face or not hehe....then stay in da library wait for diane to finish her library duty... later in the evening go to da potluck party(hopefully it turns out as planned).. see u guys there hehe oh ya MOnday is also Sinway's bday hor....hehehe which one of u r in charge to ask her? ok hope to see everyone there.


ps: F6 ppl who r reading this..(shd b pyan only hahah), wait for me after sch on Monday laaa, i go find u ppl hehehe....stay back for awhile la see my pretty face ma! i sound so pathetic but its okie i dun mind

1st January 2005


It is a brand new year! hooray say goodbye to the disastrous and horrible 2004! hoping this year would be much much better than the last! not only was it terrible for myself, it was even more terrible to the world,for the first time ever, penang tasted the cruelty of mother nature, no one had ever thought dat tsunami would reach our shores, but once again it was proven that no mankind can fight mother nature. This natural disaster occured on none other than December 26th 2004!!!(note: it was 2004!). ok back to me, today i was supposed to go over to my uncle's house in Bukit Mertajam because my cousin brother, Steven is gonna fetch me to kl on the next day. My sister's boyfriend, sis n mom accompanied me there, reached there at ard 9pm...my aunt insisted that all of them(mom, sis n sis' bf) stayed but they jus dun want to, sad me, left me alone there, i can't communicate with them, well maybe its not them, it is me, i can't comunicate with ANYONE!(read the next entry). forced my eyes to open til 1am watching tv, while the rest of the hse had gone to sleep except for my aunt, so i slept b4 her.



2nd January 2005


today is supposed to be THE day, the day i go kl n stay til cny, but heck no! didn't even know what time my cousin is leaving, didn't see him for the whole day the day before that. i myself slept until 12 noon. when he came back at last, its already 1 something, my uncle called to ask him what time leaving, n his reply was around 8-9 like dat. his friend's car, so actually it is all up to the friend. then after a nap, off he went to hang out with his friends once again while i sat n rot at home.....seriously i have communication problem with people around me, the only 2 words my cousin told me were "Go bathe!" okie i know my wrong now, but it is useless, i was still the same anti-social loser when nite falls, my cousin sis upon seeing my pitiful look on my face, decided to bring me shopping! hahah....BM plaza has got lots of clothes!! after dat she wanted to treat me at Pizza Hut, reached the restaurant, ordered our food, scooped our soup, our drinks came....then being as angelic as always, we decided to ask them back at home whether they want a takeaway, dunno whether its a wrong or right choice la!! steven answered n ssaid yes, duno wht the hell dat means, then called a second time, dis time saying my uncle wants to haf family dinner! didn't exactly understand why my cousin sis can't jus say we r eating n ask them to go ahead, must be because of my fearful uncle lar.... so when we hung up the call wid him, our pizza came....yea yea we 'ta pao' home lor! wasted money only! after dinner, was already 9plus, dun understand my cousin's punctuality...no correction, his friend's punctuality! first we picked up one of his fren who's also following them back to kl, a girl, an air-stewardess working for MAS, quite pretty wor, but kinda big sized for an air-stewardess, she's a very VERY outspoken girl, can talk basically to anyone, well including me, haha but after sumtime i guess she got bored of me.......so all 3 of us waited for his fren to come over, more waiting n waiting n waiting, finally when i was on the phone with ping may, his friend came la! dat was already nearly 11pm. got our luggage bags into the car, so paiseh, my stuffs were the most, damn packed la...as usual i jus kept quite. in the car, my cousin tried to make convo to include me, but i blew it away giving dumb response like "hah?"...im neva smart u see...reached KL, simon's hse at 3am..carried my bags n went up the stairs to find his other friends too...okie extremely shy la, din kno wht to do...nvm..then simon(cousin bro) asked me to get changed n go to sleep. slept on his bed while he slept on the floor...hahha so good of him



3rd January 2005


can't sleep actually throughout the nite, finally hear my handphone alarm ringing, quickly shut it in case i woke simon up, then jus sat on the bed doing nothing, day dreaming, thinking, worrying........7.30 d, im supposed to reach the college hall at 8.30. so got up n prepared to get dressed. but simon is still asleep la, only woke up at ard 8, reached there chun chun 8.30, but still not yet started la, no rush, so hot stood there waiting under the hot morning sun...at ard 8.55 finally all the cps students are called in, dun kno even a soul there, felt damn awkward...im beginning to feel like a loner...how do loners survive i wonder....its a horrible feeling of knowing dat u r a stranger to everyone, nobody wants to talk to you, nobody cares what u do, whether dead or alive, no difference to anyone...sad feeling.....and it makes u all the more homesick!! i wander ard alone after the orientation is over...was lining up for my timetable when 3 girls stood behind me, all cps students, then one of them tapped me on the arm n asked whether its the correct queue, so i said i guess so, they weren't convinced. a senior walked pass, they asked him, but apparently he speaks no mandarin HOORAY! my kind!! so i straight away asked him in english where to get the timetable, n he replied at ard 2! what da! dat time was around 12 only~ i thought i wanna befriend dat 3 girls, n since they are waiting too, i asked whether i can join them, they said okie, n dats not a very bright choice la, none of them understand english i think..n my mandarin sucks big time! nvm nvm nvm, i gotta get used to more of all this...at around 1pm i told them im gonna go make id card, so off i went alone...after that, i wander summore, phoned my mom, felt homesick once again....n jus wait til 2pm...my cousin came, i jus bought sandwiches for lunch, no appetite anyway...both of us walked back to his hse, get my luggage bags, n he borrowed a car from his fren, n drove me to the hostel to check in, so many ppl waiting in line to get their hostel keys, at last got mine....Block E, Groundfloor, Room 12! we got to that room n found out there's already a resident inside, so she's gonna be my roommate eh! hehehe...its better to live wid sumone than alone....i moved my things in...simon waited outside the door, males r not allowed to enter female hostel ma...took out sum things, then he took me back to college n get my timetable...after that he fetched me back to hostel....he's not a bad cousin at all! really nice eventho he dun joke much but he's a nice guy.... before he left he reminded me to phone my mom, ahhaha.....i tidied the room, my roommate's name is Xue Ling, she's quite nice, lent me a rag n pail to clean the furnitures, older than me by 2 years... after that i took a bath, after much holding back, i can't anymore, broke down to tears....feeling of loneliness n homesickness are overwhelming me....cried in the showers, ping may called me b4 dat asking to go out, but can't do so since im only new here....then later ade called...i had dinner wid my roommate, then diane called, these are really ppl i address as FRIENDS! then cying n lyn msged earlier asking how am i....im very glad to haf frens like dat....make me miss them even more....only my first day here n already can't wait til Chinese New Year when i get to go back to Penang!!!!



4th January 2005


HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JADE!! hahaha da oldest so far, so fast already 19 leh! okie today had my first lecture, Accounts. the lecturer was a nice lady with great sense of humour, she reminds me of Pn Soon(my so-called mother). it is good to know that her classes won't be boring in the future. before accounts lecture, i actually met 3 friends! wooh! at least now i can happily say dat i've made new friends.. 2 are from Johore, previously studied for 2 years in Han Chiang College in Penang, their names are Hau Chia n Chin Li, the other is a girl fr KL and her name is Jolene heheh another fren named Jolene studying in TARC..its a real miracle too dat dis particular Jolene has the same birthday as mine, December 23rd!! but she is exactly 2 years older, born in '84. weird eh?? first day of class and i met someone with the same birthdate...well today is definitely better than yesterday, and tomolo is gonna be a boring one since i only have one class in the morning n it ends at 10am...then im free for the rest of the day, won't even kno wht to do n where to go, hang around the hostel? seems boring, besides Xue Ling, i dunno anyone in the block..n xue ling has fever now, she's sick so i better let her rest more n not disturb....another thing is on saturday i won't be having any tutorials jus for dis week only, so im still deciding on whether to return to penang, phone mom later to ask her if i should, i miss home but still think its a bit early to go back, jus a week, BUT i can't go back on other saturdays cos will be having classes then....hmmm dunno how la, if i go home, i'll haf to get to Pudu alone...not dat daring yet...will see how la later...haiiih...now its 5.22pm and im bored hahhhaha, i need chee hung to get back n teach me how to set up the wireless internet connection so dat i can go on9 lah...........



5th January 2005


today is another boring day lor......computer systems lecture ended at 10am and after dat was so damn free d, nothing to do...my roommate is still sick, came back chatted wid her then went to bathe n now seriously bored cos she went to get sum rest while im here typing n playing lame games such as solitaire n spider solitaire n also pinball!!! SERIOUS lar...my comp is not installed with any new games ma...sounds pitiful rite? well haiih like dat lor...jus now chia chia msged me, apparently they missed my ability to insult ppl...hahaha funny la, dunno whether to take it as a compliment or insult (oops balasan)...well i miss them too...haiyoh......must wait til chinese new year la n hope dat by then i'll haf more frens n get a life.....ooh my laptop detected wireless internet access but unfortunately i can't surf or do anything except for knowing the fact dat im actually on9, chee hung once told me its free n can go and ask the network ppl in the office, so i went lor, but found out that u haf to pay at least RM50 a month!! so no thanks la unless i can secretly connect if i could jus get the proxy settings.. my dad won't approve of me spending my time here onlining, u kno i could get carried away sitting in front of a comp la, therefore there's very slim chance he will pay for me to enjoy the luxury of laziness...gotta remind myself dat im here only to complete my CPS n get into Uni!! i better make sure dat i dun fail any subjects !! think of family n think of frens....go on wid life! so hopefully i can find ways to sumtimes check my mails so as to not lose contact wid others..there's a cc here but i dun dare to go inside wor...neva been into one b4. Pmay called earlier too, they r going to midvalley n im supposed to join them but im super lazy n its extremely hot outside, plus i dun wanna go walking to the lrt station alone, or in that matter, go anywhere alone la...might be overniting at her place dis weekends since i haf no tutorials yet..today i found out dat dis hostel actually has no curfew. hahaha hostel wid no curfew? okie great! not dat it means anything to me, a boring person has no where to go anyway.

finally returning to my lovely blog...haha.....been terribly lazy these days, anyway at least im back now rite....

yesterday was adel's bday and today's ai ling's HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, gurl! alrite today went out wid our Miss Jade Foo who came back from Banting, a rural kampung area haha...for the third day in a row, we hang out ard gurney...ya shows how lame we are, met up wid diane n jade in mcd, they were having their lunch, i'd had mine, so were jus sitting there catching up wid dis crazy jade talking nonsense, later we started to call more frens to come, couldn't get lyn la didn't answer phone, then called chia, pmay soon came to meet up for awhile, next came pyan n tloon, was kinda boring so we got up n actually planned to catch a movie, but since sum of us already watched certain movies, so we jus walked ard gurney plaza, window shopping, went to eat at the Ipoh Street restaurant, they served their food in huge bowls, scary....and dat was abt all i did the whole day, jade dropped me home then as usual im in front of the monitor again....damn bored typing dis entry.....blogging is no fun when u r not in da mood or have nothing to express....

today's Adeline's birthday so HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, ADEL! its nice of her to belanja us lunch at Pizza Hut, she treated ard 10 ppl, then after dat i didn't follow them to gurney plaza cos really didn't feel like it...ard 12pm, pyan arrived carrying her sch bag, then oh shit i jus realised dat i'd forgotten to inform her dat da overniting thingy was cancelled, my bad. but she wants to overnite she says, so okie....after the lunch, cying fetched me to sunshine square, haven't been in dat place for years la, really. so much haf changed, as it also has wid life, sunshine sq looks much better, all renovated, kinda nice...diane did sum shopping, bought yogurt for her mom, i bought sum sweets..well afterdat, we drop diane n headed straight to cying's hse, her family was out, so jus left da 2 of us, later pmay phoned n ya we talked for sumtime on da phone, really bored and HUNGRY. can't wait til 9 for supper, so me n cying decided to go for a light dinner at Khaleel, all the food there was indeed tempting...tandoori chicken sheesssh, but we jus treat ourselves wid a piece of roti canai each..

then there we go to Suncity, cying met her fren, later lyn n xinch came n we ordered our food...as usual pmay was late, but dis time very late, around 54minutes late! hehehe expected anyway...she brought her maldives fren along, we talked for a while, n then i had to follow cying home..outside met my neighbour, she went there to dance, greeted her then walk straight to the car, as we were abt to drive off, we noticed dat pyan's bag was stil in da car, had to go back n asked pmay to come get it...

so bored today, no plans for today, supposed to do maths assignment but jus too lazy, wait til cying reaches my house then only we'll start working on it together hehe...